Monday, October 31, 2011

MIA

Sorry guys, I have been MIA. My mom was in town, lots going on here at the house and on top of it all my new class started and WOW is pretty much all I can say. The 1st day in I remembered why I didn't take Biology when I went to college to begin with, the fact that I have to go back and take it now for grad school...=/ I am just praying to get through it. I think this will be one class I will not be upset about not getting an A! I need to pass and that is pretty much all I care about =)

Ok so side not. TOM came in town so yay not pregnant. I did tell my husband what was going on and that went over way better then I thought it would. I will never know why sometimes I doubt him, I guess it is just something girls do.  Although i still hope one day to grow our family, I am happy that it isn't today.

I think I got a whopping 120 minutes at the gym this week. But this week it is on!

Ok I will try to be better about posting, I don't even know where I am weight whiz, I know gasp!

Ok till later =)

Monday, October 24, 2011

Quik post!

Forgot to update my workout summary for last week. Not what i had hoped, but I did ok.

Monday:
1 hr cardio 40 min weights
30 min Jillian 30 day shred
40 min walk w/Kids

T/W/Th/F
1 hr cardio 40 min weights

570 min total and I didn't do Jillian =( my mom is in town this week so I will start my 2 workout plan w/Jillian over again next week.


Weight 218- 2 more lbs and I am back where I got to 3 weeks ago.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Quick Update Restart days 3-6

Down to 219, whew.  3 more to go to get back to the 216 mark where I was finally showing some progress.

Killed it at the gym this week, but am pretty sure I may not win the FMFF challenge as some of these peeps are really stepping up their game! But that is ok I like a good challenge and other then Alabama winning every football game this season and going 13-0 again I am cool with it =) maybe I will be even more motivated next week when I see what all everyone did this week! I like this challenge because it keeps me motivated to get to the gym.  I like putting up a high number even if it isn't the highest.  My husband doesn't get the whole "blogging" thing. But I told him it is just easier for me to share my weight issues with others who know what it is like, then it is for me to talk to my sisters (both thin workout freaks never been overweight a day in their lives) or my friend Amy who is just got a natural ability. She is really understand and supportive and knows how much I work, but doesn't know what it s like.

Still waiting on TOM should be soon...I think I located my strings which made me breath a huge sigh of relief. My hubby and I talked about  it and as soon as I have a negative pregnancy test my Dr has agreed to put me back on the b12 injections. Yay! They worked wonders for me a couple years ago and I kept the weight I had lost off till I got pregnant again.

Hope everyone has a great weekend! Roll Tide Roll!!!!

~Till Later

Monday, October 17, 2011

A little follow up/ Then Restart Day 1

Ok so I just wanted to post a quick follow up to yesterday's post.  I did send an email to my professor when I submitted the assignment. He emailed me back and forth a few times and accepted it =) so yay! I got a B in the class. As far as the preggo things go...got to wait another week on that. Still no signs of the strings, but I am starting to wonder if I am just not over reacting to them missing and thinking I may be, because with my previous pregnancies I knew I was pregnant. SO I will just have too wait that one out. Going to wait and see if TOM arrives and once that happens if there is still no signs of the strings I will be making an apt with the OB to find out what the heck is up. I also wanted to comment on the things I said about my sister. She is wonderful and would be happy if I was pregnant. Her 'lose 80 lbs and grow out your hair' was not said in a mean way. You would have to know the 4 of us (me my 2 sisters and my mom). She knew that I wasn't super thrilled with the way I looked when I was pregnant at my other sisters wedding and she also knows me and knows how I am when I am happy. She knew I would not enjoy myself if I wasn't thinner.

Ok so I am starting over

Day 1 weight 220

workout went great. hit up the gym, completed day one of Jillian Michales 30 Day shred and walked with the kids. Eating was ok but will be better tomorrow!

I need a good cry! Warning this could be a TMI but I have gotta get it out somewhere!!!

I am stressed. Stress isn't even the word. I am lost in the stress.

My sons surgery went well. He was back to his same old self about 3 hours home from the hospital.

Finals are done. Although I start my last pre req on Monday and it is Biology =p but at least it is just one class.

Speaking of finals, they are part of the insane stress. I got an A in my speech class, but about an hour ago realized my paper for history was due at 11 est and I thought it was due at 11 ctl. UGH! I don't understand why the school doesn't have a standardized time that ALL CLASSES have to end and have materials by! It is so confusing! So needless to say I will probably get a 0 on it =/ which sucks. I Will get a C in the class and although that is all I need it still ticks me off.  I only needed a 50 on the paper to get a B, which means I could have probably just submitted what I had finished at 11 and gotten a a B. Oh well, i guess we will see what happens but I am just so angry. I find it VERY upsetting that I can have an A on the midterm and high B on the final and get a C in the class. I guess I learned my lesson. I NEVER wait till the last day to do work! I should have finished it like I was suppose to and told myself I would yesterday.

To add to that. I think I am pregnant. And while the average person would be excited about this, and while I know if I really am I will be once I figure things out I am pretty stressed about it. I have an IUD, but can not find the strings...feeling funny. I know I want another child, but my husband is not on board. If I were pregnant I would due at the end of June, my sister gets married 10 hrs away on June 16th, when she got engaged I was instructed to loose 80lbs and grow out my hair so news that I would be due in 14 days and may be banned from travel will not go over well. I will say I will risk having a baby in my home city vs missing my sisters wedding..Just saying. Hopefully I am overreacting and I am not pregnant... I want another baby just not right now=/ not to mention I know it would stress my husband out right now. We are set to get out of the service next November. We are nervous about it as it is with the economy and world the way it is. Add a 3rd child to the list and that may be the push he needs to stay in for another 10 and I really do not want him to make that decision under pressure. Unless you have been married to the military, or in the military you really can not understand what it means. The amount of your own life you miss and the lives of your loved ones. If he decided to stay I would be sad because we would be headed farther away from family again, I would support him 100% but I want it to be something he decides to do, not something he does because of fear, or that may cause him to resent me one day. And although i don't think he would ever say he resents me, I would always fear it in my head.

Ugh so forget the fact that i am back to 222 (although that was just about 30 min ago I was at 219 this am).  My brain is running in overload, stress is ramped.

So, I have decided OH WELL! I guess I got a C, not the worst thing ever. It is amazing how different it feels though when you are an adult and not a kid. I think I just take it more personal now I guess because besides chicken nuggets, couponinng, my chats with my friends at the gym, trying to balance a check book, cook, clean, fight the laundry war, it is the only real Brain challenge I have all week. but all I needed was a C so I have learned my lesson, no more waiting till Sunday night! I mean what a idiotic thing to do =/.
The pregnancy thing, well if I am I will just have to deal with it. But I will keep my fingers crossed that I am again one day, but hopefully just not today.
So new focus. I obviously can not control life. I think it is pretty apparent more and more each day.  But what i can do is control what I eat!

Tomorrow is Monday and it is the 17th.  So Here we go.

Weigh Ins will now be on Thursdays.
Tomorrow starts my 30 day Shred 2 work out a day 5 days a week goal.
Stick to my points for REAL! I am paying for the plan time to do the plan.


I feel pretty confident that I will be back to 218 in a day or so and most of i t is just eating poorly this weekend, but I want to be at least 210 by the time I go home for Thanksgiving and there isn't a reason i can't do that if I just don't get focused!!!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I won! I won!

This super cool badge for my blog =)

I won last weeks Friends Make Fitness Fun Challenge!

This week I will not be doing much. My sons surgery went well and he is home sleeping. Thank you for all the prayers =)

I hope to keep my workouts up as soon as this week passes and be posting this badge to my blog some more!

Till Later!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Workout challenge

Yep twice in one day! and then seriously that will be it for a while =)

Sunday: 45 min walk/run.
Monday: totally forgot about the filed trip with my sons class so nada
Tuesday: 65min elliptical 20min weight routine
Wednesday: 65 min elliptical 20 min weight routine
Thursday: SPIN!!! 60 min (m ass still hurts), 40min walk/run
Friday: 65 min elliptical, 40 weights, 50 min walk/run

Total: 470 min.  This next week will be tough because of my sons surgery. I am hoping to go in an workout at night, but we will have to see. I will be workout today, and tomorrow, and maybe by Friday he will feel up to going to child watch so I will have maybe 4 days this week....but my goal is the week after to start workout out a min of 500 a week. After finals means i have hit that date where I said I would start doing the Jillian Michales 30day shred again...so it is just a week away. My son is actually the motivator now for my evening walk/run and always reminds me that we need to go. Today I might go twice. Maybe once this afternoon then again this evening just to get some more activity in and get some of his energy out. II feel pretty sure I have said this before, but pacing yourself with a almost 5 yr old on a bike is a serious workout.

Ok I am out!

-Till Later

New Start

Ok, so I am going to change my weigh ins to Thursday's I think.

But as of today I have put the past behind me and I am re-focused. Lets see what I can do in the next 4 days. Weighed in this morning at 221 =( its was like whipping the last 2 months away. Workouts are good so I just need to focus on the food. I have a new plan. Kind of like a planned meal plan. And I need to cut eating so much bread. Even though WW says I can I need to say I can't.

This will probably be me last post for the next couple weeks. I am going to take a break from the computer. I will post the workout challenge this week and that will probably be it. My son has surgery Tuesday and  have finals all next week then family in town. So...I will make it a long update in a few weeks.

-Till Later

Friday, October 7, 2011

Not to Fear

I think I sounded pretty desperate the other day so Not to Fear I will not be giving up =)

It is just a rough week I guess. I have made some changes. Switching up workouts, cutting out some things, adding others, and really hoping that in another few weeks  I see some changes. I am on week 9 and I prepaid for 12 weeks so I am at least going to give it till then. And probably another 4 after that since I don't know when it is up and it will probably auto renew.

I need to be more focused too. I think if I was being honest with myself, which I am just not "as honest" open on my blog, I am not staying as close to the points as I should be. I do great till dinner. It is really difficult to find things to cook for us all that are points friendly and most of all budget friendly.  So I just need to be more focused, I have just never struggled to loose weight quite like this.  I do have a thyroid issue (I know someone posted about that). But it is not so bad that I have to take meds, I could but once you start you can't get off and I really want to stav off taking them. I really think if I get even more focused and follow the plan to a T I will loose. It is not like I haven't lost anything, it is just taking an insane amount of time =/

On a side note I am up to 270 minutes for this weeks workout challenge with 2 days to go. At least I know I will hit my minimum goal for this week.

Till Later

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

I just don't want to talk about it....

Things are just not going well. I am not sure this WW thing is for me. I get to eat normal I guess, but I am also NOT loosing weight. I am still at 218, I saw 216 on the scale a little over a week ago. When I weighed again this evening it was back up to 220 I mean WTF! That is like basically saying I haven't lost anything since I started WW! UGH! I am KILLING and I mean KILLING myself in the gym. I have upd my workouts to 1:30 this week and bringing back weights.

UGH

I am just to upset to post plus I have way to much homework to do. I have got to figure out dinner's for my fam. I may just have to feed them one thing and eat another. I still had 18points left for dinner tonight but still! UGHGHGHGHGHGGHGHGHGHG

Till Later

Which may really be pretty later. Like maybe a workout challenge post and then that will be it. My son has surgery and I have finals next week so I have a feeling I will be MIA.
Night ya'll

Monday, October 3, 2011

NO!!!

Shoot I have 3 whoops's today and it is only 2:30.

1) I totally forgot my son had a field trip today and therefor no gym this am. I am trying to get motivated to go now, but it isn't working very well...b/c of #2

2)Pretty sure I am getting sick! It just got cold 2 days ago! How can I be sick already! My noise is stuffed up and my chest feels heavy. Overall I feel ok, but crap! I have got to get to the gym I don't want to be sick!

3) The St. Jude half marathon is sold out =( my sisters and I were all going to run togther but guess it will have to be some other race.  SO we all just registered for the Turkey Trot lol. It is on Thanksgiving day and your run 4 miles while holding a turkey leg. Not quit the half marathon we all had hoped to do but it sounds like fun.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Weekly workout challenge, weight update, and Randomness

I'll start with this weeks workout challenge. If Pushing an actual push mower (not a self propelled one, and actual you must push or the mower won't go push mower) counts as a workout I complete 345 min this week! If not then I completed 295 minutes. I am still not meeting my min goal at the gym of 300 min. I should be at the gym for at least an hour a day 5 days a week. Ok it went like this:

Monday-60min elliptical
Tuesday-30 treadmill, 20 stair stepper (forgot how hard those are), 20 min walk/run w/ the kids. Have you ever tried to pace yourself with a 4 yr old on a bike? My kid is kicking my booty!
Wednesday- I had a dental apt, so nada at the gym but 20 min walk/run w/ the kids
Thursday-65 min elliptical, 20 min weight lifting, 50 min cutting the grass w/ an actual push mower
Friday-60 min elliptical

For next week I am shooting to hit at least 360 at the gym. I have looked over my calender there are no apts so I should at least be there for my min 60 min cardio a day, and my goal is to add weights to M/W/F and hopefully at least 3-4 walks w/ the kids and I really need to get to adding the leg lifts back into my everyday schedule. But for now I am shooting for a min of 360 next week

Weight update: Monday had me at 216 which means I was down a lb, but by Wednesday I was up to 219! and nothing had changed!!!! But it is that TOM so I am hoping that was the issue and decided I would go w/ Monday's weight of 216. I have not added it to my tracker yet though because I will wait till next week. I did however I add it to my WW online info and since I lost a lb I lost a point =( that was kind of a bummer. So anyway we will see what this Wednesday has to offer although I am not hoping for much as it will still not be the "best" weight in time for me.

Total Randomness, but I went to the store today because I wanted to buy a scale that kept track of my weight in smaller increments, thinking that is I could see even the once change maybe that would make me feel better. The cheapest one they had was $18 and although I can offed $18 I was sitting there in the aisle at target thinking, "I already have a scale that works fine, do I really want a new scale? or jeans are on sale this week for $19.99 do I want new Jeans?" I think it is clear to anyone reading this blog I of course bought new jeans. they are pretty snug.  I always wear a bigger size at target then anywhere else. The 18 fit when you buy them but they stretch so much that I bough the 16's because I know they will stretch and honestly I wouldn't have bought any as I would like to be a smaller size but it is cooling off and I have to have something to wear. So I have a pair of jeans lol.

Ok so if any of you are WW followers share your fav recipes! I am trying to figure out things I can eat and that my family can eat without the whole house being on a diet.

Ok well happy Sunday everyone!

~Till Later