Quick Update

I'm still here. Life is still crazy. 2 1/2 more weeks of this biology class and I will be back I miss my blog supports and I miss supporting you! I am down only another lb since last time, but b/t the holidays and the stress of this class I am happy that I haven't gained.

Please pray for me that I pass this final! I know it seems like such a silly request but I must pas this class to start grad school and I am so stressed about what will happen if I do not.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving and is gearing up for a Wonderful Christmas!!!

~Till Later

Weekly Update

4 more weeks and hopefully I will be back to filling you all in on my life. I just know you are sitting at the edge of your seat wanting to know what is going on.

Well, weight is down to 215 a new low. I need to update my fitness pall. I am hoping that being back at the dr continues to help.

Set back this week, my daughter was kicked out of child watch for biting, it is a long story she has bitten someone 3 times in the last 5 months which I do not view as an issue, but whatever. I went back to the gym to talk to the director and they are allowing her to come, just only between the hours of 11-3 which completely screws with my schedule but I still made it to the gym twice this week after being kicked out on Tuesday lol. It is dead in there, but still super inconvenient.

I also read up some articles are cardio and have discovered that I may be doing too much! Crazy I know! I talked to a trainer and discovered it could be true. SO a new change of plan. No more then 45 min of cardio at the gym a day so my plan is 45 cardio 1hr of weight training. Basically I guess you can disrupt your own metabolism when you are doing too much long lasting cardio. She did say it was ok if I came back later in the day and did it again. Of course when training for a half marathon there are longer runs, but if you fallow a schedule you usually don't run more then 3 days a week, and you only have a long run every few weeks. I am still on the fence about doing the half in Jan since I don't have a buddy and I am kind of scared to go it alone.

Ok well this week I worked out 480 this week for the FMFFC.

Night y'all! Check in again new week.
~Till Later

A week in a super fast review!

Biology is still Kicking my butty. 3 weeks down 5 to go I CAN NOT WAIT!


Kids are doing great. No more babies on the way  (couldn't remember if I posted that) maybe later but not today, insert HUGE sigh of relief.

Quit Weight Watchers, It was not working for me. It allows you to eat too many carbs and that is just not gonna work for me.

Back to 218.  Really hoping to hit the 210 mark before we head home for Thanksgiving, but I'm thinking that would be a long shot since it is in like 15 days. LOL so anything lower then 218 would make me happy =)

Running is going well. I am icing down for several hours and that seems to be helping ward off the shin splints. I am only running twice a week which I sooo know needs to be picked up and soon! I still have not registered for the half and I am considering not doing it as no one wants to do it with me and I am not sure how I feel going it allone. But we shall see. But I am spinning a couple days a week and hitting up the elptical still. Weight training has been a constant at the gym but only around for a few weeks at this point and although I can already feel the differences no super noticable changes yet.

I can get my size 14 jeans on and have even worn them in public. Grandted I am wearing spanx and stratigic shirts becasue the muffin is def there! But I will take it. I am in my 16's solid which is great becasue I really didn't want to buy any new jeans.

I am done christmas shopping. Finished up last night and only spent half of our budget this year which is great news. Also means I can travel and take everyones gifts with us so we don't have to ship anything! YAYAY!!!!

Random:But pretty bummed SAturday when my team didn't win, but it was one hell of a game and I am really hoping for a Bama/LSU rematch in the National Title game.

~Till later and Roll Tide!

MIA

Sorry guys, I have been MIA. My mom was in town, lots going on here at the house and on top of it all my new class started and WOW is pretty much all I can say. The 1st day in I remembered why I didn't take Biology when I went to college to begin with, the fact that I have to go back and take it now for grad school...=/ I am just praying to get through it. I think this will be one class I will not be upset about not getting an A! I need to pass and that is pretty much all I care about =)

Ok so side not. TOM came in town so yay not pregnant. I did tell my husband what was going on and that went over way better then I thought it would. I will never know why sometimes I doubt him, I guess it is just something girls do.  Although i still hope one day to grow our family, I am happy that it isn't today.

I think I got a whopping 120 minutes at the gym this week. But this week it is on!

Ok I will try to be better about posting, I don't even know where I am weight whiz, I know gasp!

Ok till later =)

Quik post!

Forgot to update my workout summary for last week. Not what i had hoped, but I did ok.

Monday:
1 hr cardio 40 min weights
30 min Jillian 30 day shred
40 min walk w/Kids

T/W/Th/F
1 hr cardio 40 min weights

570 min total and I didn't do Jillian =( my mom is in town this week so I will start my 2 workout plan w/Jillian over again next week.


Weight 218- 2 more lbs and I am back where I got to 3 weeks ago.

Quick Update Restart days 3-6

Down to 219, whew.  3 more to go to get back to the 216 mark where I was finally showing some progress.

Killed it at the gym this week, but am pretty sure I may not win the FMFF challenge as some of these peeps are really stepping up their game! But that is ok I like a good challenge and other then Alabama winning every football game this season and going 13-0 again I am cool with it =) maybe I will be even more motivated next week when I see what all everyone did this week! I like this challenge because it keeps me motivated to get to the gym.  I like putting up a high number even if it isn't the highest.  My husband doesn't get the whole "blogging" thing. But I told him it is just easier for me to share my weight issues with others who know what it is like, then it is for me to talk to my sisters (both thin workout freaks never been overweight a day in their lives) or my friend Amy who is just got a natural ability. She is really understand and supportive and knows how much I work, but doesn't know what it s like.

Still waiting on TOM should be soon...I think I located my strings which made me breath a huge sigh of relief. My hubby and I talked about  it and as soon as I have a negative pregnancy test my Dr has agreed to put me back on the b12 injections. Yay! They worked wonders for me a couple years ago and I kept the weight I had lost off till I got pregnant again.

Hope everyone has a great weekend! Roll Tide Roll!!!!

~Till Later

A little follow up/ Then Restart Day 1

Ok so I just wanted to post a quick follow up to yesterday's post.  I did send an email to my professor when I submitted the assignment. He emailed me back and forth a few times and accepted it =) so yay! I got a B in the class. As far as the preggo things go...got to wait another week on that. Still no signs of the strings, but I am starting to wonder if I am just not over reacting to them missing and thinking I may be, because with my previous pregnancies I knew I was pregnant. SO I will just have too wait that one out. Going to wait and see if TOM arrives and once that happens if there is still no signs of the strings I will be making an apt with the OB to find out what the heck is up. I also wanted to comment on the things I said about my sister. She is wonderful and would be happy if I was pregnant. Her 'lose 80 lbs and grow out your hair' was not said in a mean way. You would have to know the 4 of us (me my 2 sisters and my mom). She knew that I wasn't super thrilled with the way I looked when I was pregnant at my other sisters wedding and she also knows me and knows how I am when I am happy. She knew I would not enjoy myself if I wasn't thinner.

Ok so I am starting over

Day 1 weight 220

workout went great. hit up the gym, completed day one of Jillian Michales 30 Day shred and walked with the kids. Eating was ok but will be better tomorrow!

I need a good cry! Warning this could be a TMI but I have gotta get it out somewhere!!!

I am stressed. Stress isn't even the word. I am lost in the stress.

My sons surgery went well. He was back to his same old self about 3 hours home from the hospital.

Finals are done. Although I start my last pre req on Monday and it is Biology =p but at least it is just one class.

Speaking of finals, they are part of the insane stress. I got an A in my speech class, but about an hour ago realized my paper for history was due at 11 est and I thought it was due at 11 ctl. UGH! I don't understand why the school doesn't have a standardized time that ALL CLASSES have to end and have materials by! It is so confusing! So needless to say I will probably get a 0 on it =/ which sucks. I Will get a C in the class and although that is all I need it still ticks me off.  I only needed a 50 on the paper to get a B, which means I could have probably just submitted what I had finished at 11 and gotten a a B. Oh well, i guess we will see what happens but I am just so angry. I find it VERY upsetting that I can have an A on the midterm and high B on the final and get a C in the class. I guess I learned my lesson. I NEVER wait till the last day to do work! I should have finished it like I was suppose to and told myself I would yesterday.

To add to that. I think I am pregnant. And while the average person would be excited about this, and while I know if I really am I will be once I figure things out I am pretty stressed about it. I have an IUD, but can not find the strings...feeling funny. I know I want another child, but my husband is not on board. If I were pregnant I would due at the end of June, my sister gets married 10 hrs away on June 16th, when she got engaged I was instructed to loose 80lbs and grow out my hair so news that I would be due in 14 days and may be banned from travel will not go over well. I will say I will risk having a baby in my home city vs missing my sisters wedding..Just saying. Hopefully I am overreacting and I am not pregnant... I want another baby just not right now=/ not to mention I know it would stress my husband out right now. We are set to get out of the service next November. We are nervous about it as it is with the economy and world the way it is. Add a 3rd child to the list and that may be the push he needs to stay in for another 10 and I really do not want him to make that decision under pressure. Unless you have been married to the military, or in the military you really can not understand what it means. The amount of your own life you miss and the lives of your loved ones. If he decided to stay I would be sad because we would be headed farther away from family again, I would support him 100% but I want it to be something he decides to do, not something he does because of fear, or that may cause him to resent me one day. And although i don't think he would ever say he resents me, I would always fear it in my head.

Ugh so forget the fact that i am back to 222 (although that was just about 30 min ago I was at 219 this am).  My brain is running in overload, stress is ramped.

So, I have decided OH WELL! I guess I got a C, not the worst thing ever. It is amazing how different it feels though when you are an adult and not a kid. I think I just take it more personal now I guess because besides chicken nuggets, couponinng, my chats with my friends at the gym, trying to balance a check book, cook, clean, fight the laundry war, it is the only real Brain challenge I have all week. but all I needed was a C so I have learned my lesson, no more waiting till Sunday night! I mean what a idiotic thing to do =/.
The pregnancy thing, well if I am I will just have to deal with it. But I will keep my fingers crossed that I am again one day, but hopefully just not today.
So new focus. I obviously can not control life. I think it is pretty apparent more and more each day.  But what i can do is control what I eat!

Tomorrow is Monday and it is the 17th.  So Here we go.

Weigh Ins will now be on Thursdays.
Tomorrow starts my 30 day Shred 2 work out a day 5 days a week goal.
Stick to my points for REAL! I am paying for the plan time to do the plan.


I feel pretty confident that I will be back to 218 in a day or so and most of i t is just eating poorly this weekend, but I want to be at least 210 by the time I go home for Thanksgiving and there isn't a reason i can't do that if I just don't get focused!!!

I won! I won!

This super cool badge for my blog =)

I won last weeks Friends Make Fitness Fun Challenge!

This week I will not be doing much. My sons surgery went well and he is home sleeping. Thank you for all the prayers =)

I hope to keep my workouts up as soon as this week passes and be posting this badge to my blog some more!

Till Later!

Workout challenge

Yep twice in one day! and then seriously that will be it for a while =)

Sunday: 45 min walk/run.
Monday: totally forgot about the filed trip with my sons class so nada
Tuesday: 65min elliptical 20min weight routine
Wednesday: 65 min elliptical 20 min weight routine
Thursday: SPIN!!! 60 min (m ass still hurts), 40min walk/run
Friday: 65 min elliptical, 40 weights, 50 min walk/run

Total: 470 min.  This next week will be tough because of my sons surgery. I am hoping to go in an workout at night, but we will have to see. I will be workout today, and tomorrow, and maybe by Friday he will feel up to going to child watch so I will have maybe 4 days this week....but my goal is the week after to start workout out a min of 500 a week. After finals means i have hit that date where I said I would start doing the Jillian Michales 30day shred again...so it is just a week away. My son is actually the motivator now for my evening walk/run and always reminds me that we need to go. Today I might go twice. Maybe once this afternoon then again this evening just to get some more activity in and get some of his energy out. II feel pretty sure I have said this before, but pacing yourself with a almost 5 yr old on a bike is a serious workout.

Ok I am out!

-Till Later

New Start

Ok, so I am going to change my weigh ins to Thursday's I think.

But as of today I have put the past behind me and I am re-focused. Lets see what I can do in the next 4 days. Weighed in this morning at 221 =( its was like whipping the last 2 months away. Workouts are good so I just need to focus on the food. I have a new plan. Kind of like a planned meal plan. And I need to cut eating so much bread. Even though WW says I can I need to say I can't.

This will probably be me last post for the next couple weeks. I am going to take a break from the computer. I will post the workout challenge this week and that will probably be it. My son has surgery Tuesday and  have finals all next week then family in town. So...I will make it a long update in a few weeks.

-Till Later

Not to Fear

I think I sounded pretty desperate the other day so Not to Fear I will not be giving up =)

It is just a rough week I guess. I have made some changes. Switching up workouts, cutting out some things, adding others, and really hoping that in another few weeks  I see some changes. I am on week 9 and I prepaid for 12 weeks so I am at least going to give it till then. And probably another 4 after that since I don't know when it is up and it will probably auto renew.

I need to be more focused too. I think if I was being honest with myself, which I am just not "as honest" open on my blog, I am not staying as close to the points as I should be. I do great till dinner. It is really difficult to find things to cook for us all that are points friendly and most of all budget friendly.  So I just need to be more focused, I have just never struggled to loose weight quite like this.  I do have a thyroid issue (I know someone posted about that). But it is not so bad that I have to take meds, I could but once you start you can't get off and I really want to stav off taking them. I really think if I get even more focused and follow the plan to a T I will loose. It is not like I haven't lost anything, it is just taking an insane amount of time =/

On a side note I am up to 270 minutes for this weeks workout challenge with 2 days to go. At least I know I will hit my minimum goal for this week.

Till Later

I just don't want to talk about it....

Things are just not going well. I am not sure this WW thing is for me. I get to eat normal I guess, but I am also NOT loosing weight. I am still at 218, I saw 216 on the scale a little over a week ago. When I weighed again this evening it was back up to 220 I mean WTF! That is like basically saying I haven't lost anything since I started WW! UGH! I am KILLING and I mean KILLING myself in the gym. I have upd my workouts to 1:30 this week and bringing back weights.

UGH

I am just to upset to post plus I have way to much homework to do. I have got to figure out dinner's for my fam. I may just have to feed them one thing and eat another. I still had 18points left for dinner tonight but still! UGHGHGHGHGHGGHGHGHGHG

Till Later

Which may really be pretty later. Like maybe a workout challenge post and then that will be it. My son has surgery and I have finals next week so I have a feeling I will be MIA.
Night ya'll

NO!!!

Shoot I have 3 whoops's today and it is only 2:30.

1) I totally forgot my son had a field trip today and therefor no gym this am. I am trying to get motivated to go now, but it isn't working very well...b/c of #2

2)Pretty sure I am getting sick! It just got cold 2 days ago! How can I be sick already! My noise is stuffed up and my chest feels heavy. Overall I feel ok, but crap! I have got to get to the gym I don't want to be sick!

3) The St. Jude half marathon is sold out =( my sisters and I were all going to run togther but guess it will have to be some other race.  SO we all just registered for the Turkey Trot lol. It is on Thanksgiving day and your run 4 miles while holding a turkey leg. Not quit the half marathon we all had hoped to do but it sounds like fun.

Weekly workout challenge, weight update, and Randomness

I'll start with this weeks workout challenge. If Pushing an actual push mower (not a self propelled one, and actual you must push or the mower won't go push mower) counts as a workout I complete 345 min this week! If not then I completed 295 minutes. I am still not meeting my min goal at the gym of 300 min. I should be at the gym for at least an hour a day 5 days a week. Ok it went like this:

Monday-60min elliptical
Tuesday-30 treadmill, 20 stair stepper (forgot how hard those are), 20 min walk/run w/ the kids. Have you ever tried to pace yourself with a 4 yr old on a bike? My kid is kicking my booty!
Wednesday- I had a dental apt, so nada at the gym but 20 min walk/run w/ the kids
Thursday-65 min elliptical, 20 min weight lifting, 50 min cutting the grass w/ an actual push mower
Friday-60 min elliptical

For next week I am shooting to hit at least 360 at the gym. I have looked over my calender there are no apts so I should at least be there for my min 60 min cardio a day, and my goal is to add weights to M/W/F and hopefully at least 3-4 walks w/ the kids and I really need to get to adding the leg lifts back into my everyday schedule. But for now I am shooting for a min of 360 next week

Weight update: Monday had me at 216 which means I was down a lb, but by Wednesday I was up to 219! and nothing had changed!!!! But it is that TOM so I am hoping that was the issue and decided I would go w/ Monday's weight of 216. I have not added it to my tracker yet though because I will wait till next week. I did however I add it to my WW online info and since I lost a lb I lost a point =( that was kind of a bummer. So anyway we will see what this Wednesday has to offer although I am not hoping for much as it will still not be the "best" weight in time for me.

Total Randomness, but I went to the store today because I wanted to buy a scale that kept track of my weight in smaller increments, thinking that is I could see even the once change maybe that would make me feel better. The cheapest one they had was $18 and although I can offed $18 I was sitting there in the aisle at target thinking, "I already have a scale that works fine, do I really want a new scale? or jeans are on sale this week for $19.99 do I want new Jeans?" I think it is clear to anyone reading this blog I of course bought new jeans. they are pretty snug.  I always wear a bigger size at target then anywhere else. The 18 fit when you buy them but they stretch so much that I bough the 16's because I know they will stretch and honestly I wouldn't have bought any as I would like to be a smaller size but it is cooling off and I have to have something to wear. So I have a pair of jeans lol.

Ok so if any of you are WW followers share your fav recipes! I am trying to figure out things I can eat and that my family can eat without the whole house being on a diet.

Ok well happy Sunday everyone!

~Till Later

Workout Challenge

This weeks workout challenge whet like this: total 230 (sorry Jen I added wrong):

Monday: Nada. I know I had a reason, but i don't remember what it was. Or maybe I did go and I just forgot lol.

Tuesday: 65 min elliptical

Wednesday: My son had an apt at the ENT, found out he will be having a new set of tubes placed and his adenoids removed. So passed on the workout.

Thursday: 60 min elliptical, 25 min run/walk with my son on his bike, daughter in jogging stroller, and our 5 yr old beagle Tessa, needless to say it was pretty vigorous =) 15 min leg raises

Friday: 25 min elliptical (I wasn't feeling the gym) 25 min run/walk same as the day before =) 15 min doing leg raises (which I must say is a highly underrated excesses because damn it hurts!)

Next week my goal is to actually get to the gym Monday-Friday like I told myself I would. I was pretty excited that I got 2 days of 2 workouts in. I am hoping the weather will clear up so I can continue to take my son on those walk/runs. It is great for me to actually run on the pavement (with my 2nd half marathon approaching) as well as that kid has more energy then any kid I have ever meet. If I do at least my min workouts I should hit 300 min each and ever week! I need to be doing the leg raises more seeing as they kick my butt, speaking of butt maybe I will add in that weird butt crunch thing too. I am going to shoot for at least 2 double workout days and 3 leg lift days for next week.

Side Note: I am FINALLY back to the 217 marker after my Carhaba's dinner. Really hoping for a loss. Will be buying a WW scale here soon becasue I would be interetsed in half pounds as well. Maybe that will help me feel like I am doing something since this lossing weight thing seems to be draggin some booty.

~Till Later

New Kitchen Gadget, and confessions =/

I will start with Confession. Last night I went to Carhabas for a friends birthday.  We'll start by stating it was the 1st time in probably 2 years that I have gone to dinner w/o a child or my husband and just sat around with a group of woman that I had anything in common with. Needless to say I pretty much put WW and my no alchol goals and pretended they didn't exist. I had a small serving of calamari, the Bryan Chicken (I did order the small) which has goat cheese on it (AMAZING) and the garlic mashed potatoes. I should have opted for veggies, but oh well. I also had a Cesar side salad (that was pretty pathetic and if it had dressing on it I couldn't find it so that was a positive). But I also split a pitcher of Blackberry Sangria with the birthday girl and had one of the mini desserts. So I am pretty much saying that last nights dinner was ALL of my weekly points allowance of 35 and any activity I earn. So I will be sticking 100% to my daily allowance of 35.

Ok, new Kitchen gadgets.

I call it new, but it is actually really old. LOL I got it when my husband and I got married 6 years ago as a wedding gift and have never used it. Till Tuesday and my husband, kids, and I are all obsessed with it! It is the Magic Bullet. Oh and it is so wonderful for WW! I have been making my own frozen coffee's in the am. I have been making my own ice coffee for years. But frozen just steps it up a notch lol. It is a whopping 2 points beverage! And probably cost me around $.25 compared to a Tall Frozen Latte at Starbucks with 5 points and a $5 price tag. I have also been making fruit smoothies for 0-1 point! If I use ice and no milk they are 0 points! I through in some frozen strawberries and peaches (unsweetened of course) half a fresh banana, 1/4 cup of Fat Free milk, 1-2 ice cubes and 3 minutes later OM so good =) I am thinking about getting some protein supplements or something to put in with it so that is will be more filling and still be low in points. I don't want to over due the fruit.
We also got a toaster oven. For some this will probably be a less then monumental kitchen gadget but for us I am still wondering why we took 2 years to get one!  When we moved we had not sold out house and moved into a impossible small rental house and added another child to the mix. We planned to move after a year and then just decided why would we do that. It is too much work to move. LOL Ok back to the point. The kitchen in this house is seriously a joke. I have lived in a studio apartment that had more of a kitchen then this place does. Needless to say the oven heats up the whole house, or at least the whole front of the house. SO I finally caved and bought a toaster oven. A small one =) as we have no counter space. So $20 later we have been pretty much cooking anything and everything we can in it as well .

Ok random post but just wanted to share.

Till Later~

Weigh in Wednesday

Thank you LORD! I am down another lb. Finally to 10lbs. Not exactly where I wanted to be almost 3 months into this, but I think I am getting more focused. Dropping having any special beverages seems to have made a difference this week and I have added some new kitchen gadgets to my collection (tell you about them tomorrow) which seem to offer the ability to make some really awesome low point choices. I have been eating a lot more fruit then I would be on a regular basis. Not over doing it, but trying to eat it as a snack or breakfast to keep points more in check. Lets hope for a BIG loss next week!

~Till Later

Fingers Crossed

For the workout challenge this week, I was kind of pathetic =/  I only made it to they gym twice this week and still have not started any type of home routine. My total workouts this week add up to 2 hrs 23 min.

Weight is hovering at 218. I am starting to feel about 218 the way I did about 222. I think the wost part about it is HOW LONG I have been hovering at 218.  I dropped wine last week so I am thinking that will help. Not that I would drink all the time or a lot, but it is football season, and nice to have a glass to relax.  I am really trying to stick to my points totals everyday. I have gone over a little, but by this time in the week I have usually consumed all of my weekly points and that has not happened this week.  I still need to focus more on eating better snacks. I am still just figuring out what I have in the house I can have. And although it is nice to know you can have this or that, I feel some days like I am starving because I do not have any low point options in the house and I know I will not be able to maintain the ability to not eat those items. So grocery store this week has got to happen! Just not sure when?

I just completed week 5 of my 8 week courses. Thank you LORD! 3 more weeks and then finals and I am back to one class at a time, and only one more undergrad requirement till I can start graduate school. So ready for that. Taking History and Biology classes I do not really find enjoyable. When I was in undergrad I LOVED my major classes and since Grad School is pretty much a focus on the major of what you are doing I am sure I will like it much better. Granted my undergrad degree is in Marketing and I am going to Grad school to get a MA in Elementary Education. I feel pretty confidant I will love it just the same though.

Well, I have not been able to do much reading of blogs lately so since we decided to skip church today (I know I really should have gone) I am going to do a play a little catch up.

~Till Later

I want some WINE!

Seriously I am not an alcoholic. I think it is one of those things, I told myself I couldn't have for 30 days so I want some. Plus my husband is in the Navy and I am studying and it really is amazing how much more focused I stay when I am drinking a glass of vino =)

Ok well it is Wednesday and I FINALLY made it to the gym this week. Hoping to add some more workout time this week at least over the next 2 days. I haven't even cracked a book this week =/ not good. Considering it is a pretty busy week. Although I think anytime you take 2 classes at once that are both condensed into 8 weeks and usually taught over 16 it is a busy week.

That being said hubby won't be home for a few hours and both kids are asleep. Homework here I come!


~Till Later

Back on Track

WHoo Hooo!~!!! Weighed in at 218 today. Thank you LORD! Family has gone home, half marathon and travels are all complete until Thanksgiving it is time to kick this fat ass into gear!

I set a BUNCH of lofty goals when I started this blog and I am so far behind them, I don't even want to ready them. So here is my new goal. I want to be UNDER 200 lbs when I go home at thanksgiving. I have 10 weeks and 18lbs to loose. that is less then 2 lbs a week. I should be able to do this! I am not on track to be where I want to be when I need to be there. So come Feb/March I may be on the Physicians plan just do to time frame, but I really hope I can do it on my own!

My goals this week are to STAY ON MY POINTS! Eat no weekly or activity points. Also a BIG one. I have got to cut the wine =/ it really is my biggest vice and even when I count the points and don't go over I really need to just give it up for a while. So starting today I am doing 30 days of no wine. Lets see what that does for me!

Ok well now that craziness and mid terms are over I will be updating more often =)

~Till Later

Frustrated

Not seeing much for results on WW. Granted I completed a half marathon Sunday (official time 3:08:21) and ate pretty bad after because I was so hungry. It is also not the best time of the month for weigh ins, so I am weighing in at 220. Ugh. But I guess it could be worse. I could be back to 234 from march. I don't know. I was so disappointed tonight when I logged into the half marathon to see if there were any good pictures of me. I had a TON of pictures. Way more then my friend Amy. Too bad in most of them my shirt is ridding up (mistake of allowing a thin friends to pick you out a shirt to run in and she thought it looked big =/) or I just look HUMONGOUS! Pictures don't lie though. My friend is telling me, you don't really look like that. But I do.

I am picky with pictures. I post TONS to FB, but I am strategic in how I pose, I always put on lipstick to draw the eye to my face, position my kids to cover me, you know the works! So although I tend to look ok, when you get a full body view, and heck a full body view of yourself in spandex...eek!

I have got to do this! I have got to stop the snacking got to kick it in gear got to got to got to!!!!

Deep breath.

All I can do is get more focused. I am pretty sure I injured the same shin splint on my right leg so I am going to take a long break from running. The fact of the matter is I have just got to lose some weight. My body is just not taking it well. I am going to kick working out up a notch. Keeping my 1:30 workouts are my plan, and then add some leg lifts, sit ups, push ups, and all that jazz at home when the kids are awake. Not quite ready to add the 2nd workout to my day till mid October when I am back to taking one class in a 4 week period vs 2 over 8. It really is amazing how different that is. I need to add weights back to my routine, but I dislike the weight room at this gym. I guess I just need to face the music. When I lost so much weight 2 years ago, I only did 30 minutes of cardio and about 15 minutes of weights and it was falling off. Now I am doing at least on hour of cardio and I am at a snail pace.

I know I didn't gain it over night, but you can't help but want to loss it overnight. I really was going to skip the gym because I have so much to do tomorrow! But I am not. I am hitting the gym. Busy or not there are no excuses to miss the gym because you are busy. There are too many days I know I will have to miss due to kids apts or different things that I can not control. So to the gym I go!

I'm going to try to add some of the pictures from Sunday. I am going to add the real ones =) not the ones that I added to FB where I chopped my bottom half off lol. I know I am not alone in that here =)

Till Later

I DID IT!

Well I finished the half marathon!!! Took me 3:08:21 and I am exhausted. For the most part I feel ok, but my inner thighs are killing me. I followed up the race by eating a pretty bad meal =/ a 22point trip to McDonalds.  But i was starving and shaking I needed food. I am also saying I just ran 13.1 miles so I think I am allowed, but just this once.

I am participating in a workout challenge with some other lady's. After today's half marathon I worked out 303 minutes for the week.  I am only disappointed that those are only spreed of 2 days. I am going to enjoy the rest of my visit and then I am going to hit things hard on Wednesday when I get home!

I'll write a longer message later.
~Till Later

UGH! and Super fast update!

Only hit the gym once this week. Had a sick kiddo and didn't want to get hurt before Sunday. Not sure y? I am terrified!  have not idea what made me think about doing a half! I really hope I finish! I mean you have 4 hrs to do so, and that is an 18 min mile I think and I really hope we jog some, although my partner didn't train at all =( and I really did.

NO WEIGHT LOSS!!!! Weight gain =( only 2 lbs and I have been bad bad bad. So I am refocused and even with carbo loading on Saturday I hope to loss at least the 2! We shall see. I need to let go of the wine =/ so I am going to a wine less September. Or a liquor free September, well maybe a celebrator I did a freaking half marathon drink on Sunday night, but that's it! Which will be so hard! College football started tonight...but I will do it. I am sure it will help and I need to get on filling the house with better snack options and take my ADD meds lol. They help me stay focused.

Ok well it is 11:31 and the kids and i are heading out at 4 am!! Heading to VA! if you are in VA beach come out and cheer me on at the Rock in Roll! Don't know my number yet but i will try to upload when I am there.

Till Later!

OMG the Half Marathon is in 6 days!!!

weight 218 :/ saw a flash of 217 I really hope i have a loss this week.

Workout. Last BIG LONG one before the race! if fact one of only 2 workouts this week. I did 8 miles on the treadmill in 1:45:59 and yes that one second is important =) I decided I needed to actually put pressure on my foot. It is still broke and I do somehow manage to slam it into something everyday so who knows if it will ever heel! I will say it itched a ton this weekend so hopefully that is a sign that it is getting better. It hurt a little more then normal for about a quarter of a mile, and then that was pretty much it. I still felt it at different times, but nothing traumatic. It didn't turn blue or anything crazy so looks like I am in good shape for Sunday.

I can not BELIEVE that the half marathon is here already! I am def not the size or weight i wanted to be before I made this run. I started training in March and wanted to be down to 190 which at the time would have been a loss of 44 lbs, instead of a loss of 16 lbs. But hey it is what it is. I know that WW is working, I just have not been sticking to it as strictly as I need to.  But, I am hoping that when the new start to the week for me happens on Wednesday my goal of not eating my weekly points will actually happen! Then again i will need to eat some none plan things for the marathon. But we shall see.

Anyway, hope everyone has a good week!  Here's to weight loss!

~Till Later

Nothing Taste....

Close you eyes, imagine your sparkly red shoes and click your heels together 3 times saying with me, "nothing taste as good as thin feels, nothing taste as good as thin feels, nothing taste as good as thin feels", unfortunately when I open my I can still see all of my trigger foods. Blueberry pop tarts, Red Wine, cheesecake, chips!, hang on let me try again, "nothing taste as good as thin feels, nothing taste as good as McDonald's french fries fresh and hot"...oh wait that was wrong. "Nothing taste as good as thin feels, nothing taste as good as thin feels, nothing taste as good as Blondie a la mod, covered with caramel sauce". Dammit!!! One last time "nothing taste as good as thin feels, nothing taste as good as thin feels, nothing taste as good as thin feels" I think I will have a Kiwi.

Yes I often actually have to say this to myself when making the choices on what to eat. Most of my trigger foods are not in the house, and can not even be a choice for me to eat, but I often will sit and think about them for hours. I think it is safe to say that i might even be a food addict! The longer this journey goes on the easier it is getting to say no. Adding WW to my life has made it even a little bit easier because I can not splurge every once in a while and have one. I also now know there point values and can decide if I think they are worth it or  not. That is really helping to put things into perspective. I know it will get easier, I am just ready to get there. I have to keep reminding myself I didn't gain all this weight over night, I am not going to loss it overnight.

~Till Later

Proverbial Wall

Ugh don't even want to talk about weight! I am super annoyed! It is like I gained 4 lbs overnight, how does that even happen? I am going to stay off the scale the next few days and see if it gets any better. Finger crossed because I am just angry now!

The Wall

I have been attending the gym on and off for close to 3 years. I would say more on then off, in fact I would go as far as to say that I have not gone longer then 2 weeks without going to the gym at least once. That being said it has been 2 years since I have been in a good workout routine. When I started this blog the end of June I have been very consistent. In fact most of this summer I was pretty consistent. Now that school is back in session and there is no reason for me to not be at the gym at least Mon-Thursday that is my for sure workout schedule. I am trying to make it on Friday's as well to meet up with a friend and i know there is no way I will make it on the weekends. I am just too spent from the week and my kids have activities going on and if I don't go in the morning, that pretty much means I am not going.

Ok back to the subject here...THE WALL!!! Ugh it was a struggle this week. All week to workout. I only did the elliptical all week which I know is still a really good workout, I was still burning between750 and 900 calories a workout, again good. However, each day I am battling with myself the whole time. Today was the worst! I didn't want to go to the gym to begin with. Then once there I argued with myself the whole time I was on the machine. 1st I left my speech book at home so I had decided I would just do a quick workout and go home so I could so some studying since I forgot the book. But i wanted to hit a 5k before a certain time, I didn't do it so then I argued over getting off the machine with myself at a certain calorie count, then I was so close to a certain time I decided to stay on till I reached the time limit, then I decided within that time limit I needed to have burned a certain amount of calories. I failed each goal and once I hit the 10 min left mark I figured well I only have 10 min left might as well do my full hour and 5 mile workout. So I did.

I hit that wall everyday. The wall of I just don't want to do this anymore. i can think of a million things I need to be doing other then being at the gym. The truth is I wouldn't be doing them though if I wasn't at the gym. I would be procrastinating doing something else. I don't know if that wall will ever go away, or if I will have to fight with myself everyday I go to the gym. I guess if you want it you have to fight for it. I know I feel guilty days I don't go to the gym and at least get my hour in. I have been feeling guilty not getting my hour in a half in. I am ready to get back to running and building that back up because I know that i will see more change when I can run again, but my foot is still hurting. As much as I am looking forward to the half marathon next weekend, I am kind of hoping Irene makes then put the race off to a different weekend =/.  But I don't want the storm to hurt anyone, so I don't want it to sound like that. Just maybe that there is some trees down on the roads that they don't have time to move or something.

Well, that blog was random and all over the place. But I have no doubts I am far from alone. I am thinking about trying to add in a 2nd workout a day (I know with what free time I am not sure). But the Jillian Michal's 30 day shred is a quick workout that really does get results and i could add it in easy as it is only 27 minutes. I also need to add weights back in to my workout soon, I'm just not a fan of the machines at the Y we are members of now but I guess I will do that as soon as the half marathon is over. I need to focus on building up to 2 hour workouts a day or as close to as I can get and maybe a 2nd workout. When you have 80 lbs to loss you have to get serious.



This was long! Deep breath, I am back on track as of now. I will not worry about the fact that I burned most of my weekly points the last 2 days. I will stay on points the rest of the week. I will plan out better what I will eat, and I will avoid the "quick" bit of this and that.  Fingers crossed for a loss next week!

~Till Later

Weigh IN!

218!!! Down 2 from last week so I will take it.Only 1 lb down from last Thursday, but down 2 from my "offical" weigh in days. I is 12:30 here and i just wrapped up a long night of history so I am going to have to write later...

Weekend

Just a quick update. Went out of town this weekend, didn't again any weight! Impressed. Now just hoping that I see more then a loss of 1 on Wednesday so here is hoping for that!

~Till Later

Quick update on life!

Weight 219!
Workout elliptical 1 hr, bike 30 min, totally calorie burn 1,026. I started tracking calories for weight watchers. For every 80 calories burned, you earn one activity point. SO to say that I am kicking it in the gym is an understatement so I hope it starts to translate into some results.

The Weight Watchers thing is going pretty good. I haven't really made any weight watchers recipes or anything. I have basically just been finding things in the house and eating them. I did buy some weight watchers cheese, 1 point tortillas, and a few low fat/fat free things that i knew were low in points and then veggies and fruits to eat. It has been going pretty well though. I think next week will be the true test to whether or not I am losing weight. I think I would have re-bounded to 220 anyway. Granted this evening I weighed in a 219 and I even saw a glips of 218! I think I need to get one of those scales that weights the ounces. That is after all what they weigh you in on at weight watchers and it might be good to see even ounces go down over the days. That will have to wait till next pay day for sure. It has been nice to eat what the family eats which I couldn't do on low carb so that has helped. I did get a scale to weigh some of the food so I can stay on track when calculating points. Last night I had a Junior League meeting at the mellow mushroom and couldn't find points totals for what I was going to eat anywhere. I just counting it as a lot! LOL! And kept it to a minimum. I had 2 slices of a veggie pizza and am amazing Greek salad!

My life is crazy right now. Between my son being back in school, working out, and the 2 classes I am taking I am pretty much in a constant state of stress. over the next 8 weeks post may be minimal due to the amount of course work I have going on. Since they are mini mesters I am pretty much considered a full time student along with everything else in life.

Ok kids are screaming gotta run!

~Till layter

Too Tierd

Too Tired to post
but weigh in 220 and did and hour on the elliptical and 20 min on the bike. Foot is still broken but felt ok.

~Till Later

New Plan

WEIGHT: 221, but I am ok with that as of now

EXERCISE:  well I broke my foot. Yep you read that correctly I broke my foot.  I broke a small bone at the bottom of my pinkie toe, It hurst like hell and I haven't been to the gym since it happened on Friday night. Dr said I am ok to workout as long as I stick to non impact (so back to the no running). Ughgh! SO the half marathon is in just  a few weeks to say that I am stressed is not the full view of my life right now. SO I will get back to the gym tomorrow when my son goes back to school and we will see how things go.  I did cut the grass on Saturday and that seemed to be ok with my shoes on. It was a pain to get the shoe on, but after that it felt ok.

LIFE: SO I started classes back on Monday. I am taking 2 classes over the next 8 weeks and the amount of work I have is insane! I keep telling myself there is an end goal. After these 2 classes I only have one more class and I can start the graduate program (THANK YOU LORD!) But between a husband who has an insane schedule, 2 kids, essentially being a full time student again, cleaning the house, endless laundry, trying to lose weight, and a whole laundry list of to dos that never get done...it is just exhausting to even think about.

NEW PLAN:  I ditched the no carb/low carb. Although I still think it is the best and the easiest way to diet to get results so that I stay focused, I also realized that in my current life I can not stay focused on it. And with low carb you have to stay focused and you can't cheat all the time or it doesn't work. hence the meager weight loss over the past 6 months.  Taking a look at everything and trying to decide what I could afford, what I thought would work, and how desperate I felt I decided to give Weight Watchers another go.

I did weight watchers about 10 years ago when I was in college and was about to get married (didn't get married then but got really thin). It seemed to work well and was easy enough. The only problem was I didn't really changed what I ate, I just basically curtailed my eating and used all my points to eat bad for you stuff and to drink. I still lost an insane about of weight, but didn't do much for me down the road. They have a new program now, still a points program, but the points are all different. I even have more points to eat. It is weird. I am sure once i get the hang of it everything will be ok. It does has an awesome Iphone ap I got for free and that has made finding things to eat super easy. Plus all the restaurant guides are listed in the ap so I didn't have to buy the books! I don't even have to plan in advance or keep anything on me since the ap is in my phone and we all always have our phone. Fingers crossed this is the ticket. I was up to 225 this week! But am back down to 221 and I have read that a lot fo people gain a few the 1st week, and i kind of figured I might just due to the switch in how I was eating so I am ok with that. Hopefully my foot will not hinder me for too long. SO far I have been doing ok. The first day was crazy and I burned a lot fo my weekly points and i have still been using some each day as I figure out what thinks I can eat and find new stuff to incorporate. Hopefully in a few weeks I will have some go to foods and a good idea of the new points system. I really plan not to use my weekly point totals unless it is for a special event, like a holiday, or anniversary or wedding cake =) I found a great coupon online for the program. I paid $45 for the plan sign up and for the 1st 3 months. After that it will be $17.95 a month. I opted not to go to the meetings because they are $12 a week and $31 to join and I just couldn't justify it. Especially when I know how busy I am going to be to begin with and know that the meetings will be super hard to make it to.  Going to meetings and weighing in is probably the better way to go, I just couldn't do it right now.

So wish me luck!

~Till Later

My Low Carb Philosophy

Weight: 220 pretty sure I will see it all over the place this week so we shall see, but I knew it would drop due to the wrong timing.
Exercise: Not quit my 11 minute mile again today. I was on a different elliptical again, but I was pretty proud of myself. I stuck it out and did my full work out. 6 miles on the elliptical. Took 1:13:00 so 12.16 min miles. Then I wrapped up with a mile run at 11:34 on the treadmill. My legs were feeling good. A few twinges when I got going but they settled down quick. I hit a block at 4.5 on the elliptical but I made myself push through.  It was a 7 mile kind of day.

I know I mentioned when I first started this blog that I low carb. I have been eating a little of this and a little of that so I have not been seeing the results I know I should see. Hence why there are some BIG changes coming my way and soon! Like yesterday =)! Anyway, I use the basics of low carb. However, I don't eat steak and bacon all the time. I also allow myself to eat and as much as I want to when it comes to green veggies. That whole 2 cup of green veggies is for the birds! If I am dying for some fruit I allow myself to have green apples. For the most part I focus on lean meats and green veggies which really if you think about it is what most diets put you on I just don't allow myself any pasta, bread, or sweets. With some of the changes I have in mind that I will be doing soon this diet plan may change. I am obviously not seeing results, but I also am not staying true to myself. I am still allowing myself a glass of wine, a beer, diet soda, and will have a bite of this or that...so needless to say it is time to get real about this! I have been doing great with getting my exercise on, but it is time to get the food on track.

So I will continue on with the Low Carb plan till after the Half Marathon September 4th. If I am still not showing any results then I am thinking I may look into Weight Watchers and start tracking points. It just depends though. Part of me is like if I am going to spend the money I should just get on the physicians plan again. I know it works, I know I can follow it, and really if WW is $10 a week it would only cost me around $30 a month more. I guess time will tell and we will have to wait and see.

~Till Later

I'm Back!

weight: 223 (+3 but there is one week every month that I go up between 3-5 lbs so I am thinking that is my issue, Hears to hoping.) SO basically 3rd week in a row at 220..ugh hope I bust through this soon!
Exercise: Spot on. I think the elliptical I was using all last week has issues. I was spot on my 11 minute miles today. 4 miles in 44 minutes. I was sweating up a storm and really wanted to do 6 and then run a mile, but we had a super late start and were going to a friends for a play date so I did 4 and checked out.

The visit home was nice. It is hard to be around my 2 insanely small sisters and everyone clam that I am looking like I have lost weight. I don't think 7 lbs shows up that much we have this much to lose. I did pretty good till i had some wedding cake. Then the drive home I had a friend sandwich. But it is a new week and I am more focused then ever. I am making some new plans and some new goals and will be busting my butt. My son starts school next week and I know life will start to regulate more soon.

~Till Later

It's that time of the week

Weigh In: 220! Ya! Although I am sure it will be gone again tomorrow. So since we are leaving to  go out of town I am not even going to weigh again tomorrow so I don't get down about it going back up and say what the heck while I am visiting family.  Instead I will use being out of my comfort zone to stay focused!!!

Workout: 4 miles 48:30..on the elliptical not sure where my 11 minutes miles went. I was killing myself today to try to stay on pace and I was dying! And this is not a new workout regimen! The woman on the treadmill said something to me when I hoped off really quick to grab the gym remote to change the channel after the guy watching MSNBC left (who can watch the news when they are working out? I am trying to take the frustration I already have out on the machine not get even more frustrated by watching the news!) Anyway, she was like wow you are really moving on that thing. I laughed and said yea and I am running behind. She looked at me like I was nuts! After 4 on the elliptical I ran a mile on the treadmill. Again it was easy 5.00 12 min mile pace. I didn't feel the twinge in my knee till about the half mile mark, so I know it really is just getting everything back use to the pressure of running (if I would drop some more weight I know it will be so much easier) around .75 I felt a pull in my ankle and almost panicked. But again I think it is the same as the knee so I finished up even though I so wanted to Pound out the last quarter of a mile. Jack that treadmill up to a 7 mil and hour pace and really feel the burn. But I guess I need to take it slow =(

There is so much I want to talk about but just don't have the time. I will be doing most of the driving tomorrow night when my husband gets off work and I need to get a lot done tomorrow so no sleeping in. I don't want to push myself too hard w/o enough sleep. I'm hoping I can get going 1st thing in the morning and get my workout done. Take the kids to the bounce house, come home load up the car and lay down and take a nap...I may have to ax the bounce house so I can be sure to get in a nap. I know my 4 yr old will watch a movie and my 1 yr old will nap if I lay with her, so I may just have to do it.

~Till Later

I can RUN again =/

Today's weight:222
Today's workout: Slow and unfocused. 4 miles in 50 min on the elliptical, and a mile on the mill at 5.5

I was benched 6 weeks ago from running. I have recurring shin splints in my right leg. Funny how things work out. I am trying to lose weight, yet because of my weight my workout is causing my body harm. Seems like a catch 22. 

Anyway, I was cleared to start running again today, but reminded to take it slow. Really really slow. The trainer at my gym said a mile 3 days a week for 2 weeks then I can up it by .5 a mile a week, no running more then 4 days a week and if I feel anything I need to extend the time at each interval. Not exactly the words I wanted to hear. I am running a half marathon September 4th!!!

 Well, I am obviously not running it. They give you 4 hours to complete it and even at a 15 minute mile I should finish in less the 3:30 hours.  It just isn't what I was hoping for. Part of me thinks I will still try to run it =/ I know not a smart statement. What good does it do me to run it, just to injure myself that day and be sat out again. I am just ANGRY about it! I have been training for 6 months for this and my FAT ASS is what is keeping me from doing it! I think the most frustrating part of it, is that I am capable of running that far. When I got injured I was running 5 miles a day 5 days a week in 55 minutes! I was breaking a sweat, but the only reason I was stopping was I only have 2 free hours of child watch at the gym and would need to shower and get dressed because there is no way to do that at home with both kiddos. I was well on my way to a VERY successful run with an estimated finish less then 3 hrs. I know it is still a success. I know it is going to be fun and I am going to be glad I did it. Now I can complete it with my friend Amy who never had any desire to run the whole thing, yet planned to interval the race. But I am still disappointed.

Part of me doesn't get it. About 3 years ago I started this weight loss journey at almost the same place (about 15 lbs higher around 240).  I did a plan at my local Dr. office that put you on a modified carb diet (which I am using again), they gave you and appetite suppressant (which I only used for 6 weeks) but then you got the b12 injections (OMG MISS THEM!!!). I did great! I was losing any where form 8-10 lbs a month did the plan for 6 months and lost 54 lbs. I was also running. I learned that the elliptical didn't do much for me. I guess although I am fat, I have always been active and the elliptical wasn't cardiovascular challenging enough. Both of my super thin sisters run (I'll blog about them later) so I developed a 5k a day workout. I ran a 5k a day 5 days a week. It took me maybe a month & a half to build up to it and that was is it. I stayed on that course hard and heavy for close to a year. I hate to run, I still hate to run. But I LOVE what it does for me and for my body! As much as I hate it, I love the way I feel when I am done with a run, I loved all my new size 12 clothes I bought from Express, I loved the way my husband couldn't keep his hands of of me, I just LOVED the way I felt! All the time! I still wanted to loose about 30 more lbs. But I knew those last few would be the hardest and I knew I could do it, but I got pregnant. Don't get me wrong we were trying, I wanted that baby girl =) but between our move to a new base, and a few weeks not staying focused I gained back 16lbs overnight, then I had gotten out of my grove and then was pregnant chasing a 2 yr old so I was exhausted. So needless to say workouts out the window. At least I stay focused on my eating and didn't gain the 60lbs I did with my son, I still gained 30, added to the 16 I had already gained, and the 30 I still needed to loss. Hence where I am a year later ( a year after the baby, 3 yrs from the original start).

Ok pretty sure I just rambled on about something. So the long and the short is I can run again. I was off my game at the gym and was running pretty slow on the elliptical tonight and not really sure why. I was running a 12.5 min mile when I am usually at 10-11. SO I cut my workout short. I had completed 4 miles in 50 minutes, then hoped on a treadmill and completed a mile in 12. Its my standard go to pace. It is slow and easy. I ran with ease. I feel a tinge in my left knee, but i am sure that is my 222 lbs coming back down on it and it has been a few weeks since I have been running. I wanted to keep going, as much as I hate running. I just know it works! But I will do my best to heed my trainer and my doctors advice. I will take it slow. I want to be running again, I want to become a runner, I mean have you ever meet a fat runner?

Weigh in Wednesday..

I really wish that there was an exclamation point after that title but there isn't.  Having my one cheat meal, which turned into 2 full cheat days with some major bad over eating on Thursday and Friday leaves me just mad, sad, and irritated. I weighed in this evening at my illusive 222. +2 pounds from my blog a week ago and +3 from where I weighed in after I had blogged. The past few days I have been sitting at 223 with not a budge and really thought I would be posting that as my weight today. But i weighed in before I showered after dinner tonight and was a little happy to see it was down another lb again. But i will be even happier when I get back to the 219. I read over my goals again and was just so bummed to see how little progress I am making. I keep think that something has to give soon right? Other then my cheat days I have been sticking to my low carb meal plan, and hitting the gym on a regular basis. Maybe I should start my posts with my workout for the day..hum that is a thought.
Anyway, back to what I was saying. My goals. I am so off for what I wanted to be. My August 6th I was hoping to be at 210. Weighing in today at 12 lbs over that =(. I am hoping the weight loss really starts to get moving soon. With the half marathon looming in September I am picking up the workout sessions. Not to mention my oldest child will be back in school soon and that too will help pick up my gym visits.

I hope to be turning frowns upside down next week!

~Till Later

Deep breath...don't look back

Ok so I teetered a bit...notice there hasn't been a blog since my weigh in last week? Well there is a reason. I am trying to overcome my fall. I allowed a friend of mine to take me into a "cheat" meal. One meal a week in which you have what you want. Well that may be all fine and good when I am down 40lbs, but when you have lost a whopping 7lbs it is not the time be adding in a "cheat" meal. And I knew this. But I gave in and did...OH so bad. When we left our friends house I got a bottle of wine and the cheat continued. I only had a glass Thursday night, but I drank the rest of it on Friday night, along with finishing off a bag of chips, a chocolates candy bar, and a pack of pop tarts. Pretty sure none of those things are "low carb". Needless to say the scale skyrocketed. Finally this morning I weighed back in at 221. Not quite the 219 I weighed in at after I wrote my blog on Wednesday. So it is still upsetting. By this evening after dinner I weighed in at 224! UGHGGHGHG not this again! I counted the weeks that I have had this blog and if I get back to 220 before Wednesday I have lost a lb a week. That is just not going to cut it for me! I need to be losing more, I weigh enough to be losing more. Not to mention if I keep it up I will not have lost enough by the 1st wedding I am in in March.

So, today is Monday, I am taking a deep breath and not looking back. I am having a class of wine tonight to celebrate the fact that I got an A in my class (I am back in school after 8 years I will write about that tomorrow). It is back to the hard core stay the course. I am hoping I can get back to the 220 by Wednesday when I weight in. Better yet if I could get to the 219 in which I was when I weighed in even better. I was really hoping I could make some progress on my own and not go and get on the diet plan at the Dr office, but it is looking more and more like I will be bitting the bullet in a few weeks and going to do that. When you have 70+ lbs to loose, you have to make it happen. I don't want to get discouraged, but I need to see some real progress and fast!

Some people and programs may be happy with alb a week. I just am not one of them. I know what I am capable of losing because I have done it before. The good news is I know if loss 30 lbs it will drastically change the way I am able to work out and the way I look because I did it just a few years ago before I had my daughter. Now if I can just get back there and hopefully soon!


Till later!

Lets Make A Weigh In Day!

Let's make a weigh in day! And I decided today will be the day. Granted I actually weigh in everyday, multiple times a day. Unhealthy maybe.  But it is what I need to do. I have to know where I am standing. Frustrating yes. Seeing as I weigh in and see one number and later that same day see another. It is annoying and some times very frustrating. Like why did I gain 4 lbs just because I ate a salad for dinner? However, I have found when I don't do so. And I don't weigh in a lot what happens is it is weeks later and I get on the scale and have gained 16 lbs. Oh and i can do that in a matter of days. When we moved two years ago. I went 9 days without a scale. In that nine days I gained 19 lbs. Impressive I know. I have to stay on it at all times. Obsessively on it.

I am going to make "official" weigh ins for progress post on Wednesdays. I have this blog for a month and haven't really made an attempt to get some things organized so here is the beginning of getting this thing to look like a real blog. Today I weighed in at 220! Skipped right on over that illusive 222! I didn't get to weigh in this morning because my husband was in the shower when the kids and I left so I weighed in when I got home from the water park this afternoon. I am sure I am dehydrated and before I go to bed tonight I will have gained a few pounds in liquid, but that seems to be the trend. I did the same thing with the 222lbs.  Hopefully the 220 will be more contestant. Hopefully all this dieting and gym work is finally starting to get me somewhere. I guess only time will tell. Oh I hope to bust through the 220's before this week is over. It would be so great to be in the 2 teens. Granted It will be even better when I start with a 1, and better yet when I have hit my super awesome probably over a year away dream goal of 145 =)

S0 weigh in today at 220. That is a weight loss of 7 lbs since this blog started and down 14 from 234 when I started the weight loss journey on my birthday. Fingers crossed I can break through the 200's by the time I run the half marathon on September 4th. I am not going to hold my breath though seeing as I have 6 weeks to so it in. Even 2 lbs a week wouldn't get me there. but here is to hoping. At least seeing the number 220 come up on the scale 3 times today (yes I weigh 3 times in a row to make sure that I am standing on the scale correctly, or whatever to make sure I get the same number 3 times straight) gave me a new push that finally I may be getting somewhere. I know if I can see a loss ever few days I can stay focused it is when you hit those walls you ask yourself, if I am not losing weight anyway I might as well eat some of that cake!

Till later!

The Illusive 222

Never in my life did I think I would be hoping that 222 would come up on the scale. I mean NEVER! I spent my whole childhood. Thin, I mean really thin. I didn't start to really gain weight till I was in high school and even then I graduated wearing a size 6/8 and having a very nice athletic build. Of course I thought I was fat. But in reality I was fit! I left for college and of course gained the freshman 15. But for me it was more of the freshman 50. But Christmas of my freshman year I weighed in at 190 lbs.  That is a long cry from the 145 I left home weighing. My boyfriend at the time was still in high school so I went to a Christmas formal with him over break. Those pictures are what pushed me over the edge. When I returned to school I started Atkins and was back working out. I was too embarrassed to work at the college rec center so I would walk/jog from my dorm to the rec center, weigh in, and walk/run back. It was about a 4 mile trip and worked. When I came home in March my sister was in cotillion and I had told my boyfriend I was going to where the same dress I wore to Christmas formal. When he arrived to take me he said there was no way in hell that was the same dress. But it was, I just looked way better in it. I had lost 60lbs and was looking pretty good. I kept that weight off for the rest of the freshman year and into my sophomore year when that same boyfriend and i broke up I dropped another 20 almost overnight. He had broken things off 2 weeks prior to his fraternity formal which I had already bought a dress and made him take me anyway! LOL! I had a blast whether we were dating or not, and weighing in at 140 lbs I looks amazing in it. About a year later I started dating one of the worst people on the planet. I even managed to drop another 10 lbs and stayed at about 130 for all of my junior and most of my senior years. When I got out I creeped up a little but still stayed around 150-160 an was healthy.  But between working 2 jobs and having a life as a young 20 something working out did not happen
Needless to say 222 was never some where I thought I would be one day. These past few weeks I have seen it flash up, but it would never last, I would weigh in an hour later that same day and be 226 or 224. It just keeps flashing up over and over again! I just want it to stay then I want to BREAK THROUGH IT!

I have conquered so many things in my life that losing the weight should be easy...notice the should!

Pushing over the hump...

It feels to early in the game to e pushing through the hump, but that is where I find myself. The other day when I weighed in at 222, I weighed again in the same day and was back up to 226. I decided that it was water. I was downing an insane amount of water that day, well and every day since. It has been heat index of 115 here. Well, I am back down to 224 but haven't seen 22 since I weighed in and posted. I have been sticking to my no carbs though. It is killing me. Of course I am eating carbs, but it I am not cheating at all when it comes to bread, pasta, sweets...that stuff. Maybe I should post about my low carb philosophy? OK that will be the next post. Anyway, I told my husband tonight I was getting frustrated again. He told me to stick to it, I've been staying focused these last few weeks. He even went to the store to get me some more pork rinds so I could have a snack with him while we watched a movie tonight. I then finished my night with some sugar free jello, which kind of tasted like cough medicine.

Tomorrow will be a better day, tomorrow will be a better day, tomorrow will be a better day

It's going down!

So I didn't meet my goal for my daughter’s birthday party last Saturday. It took me an extra week. I weighed in this evening at 222. I will take it. That's down from 234when I started tracking it, and down from 227 when I started this blog. I will take 5. Heck I will take whatever I can get.

I am low carbing. It stinks. I feel like I am starving and all I want is a HUGE bowl of bowtie pasta with pesto sauce and garlic bread. Needless to say, this is why I weight 222 lbs. In the past when I have done well on a diet I allow myself to have a normal portion of something bad for you. I don't know why I would think since i have lost 5 lbs I can start to eat normal again. So tonight, after I weighed myself, I sat down and ate my fajitas w/o a wrap and snacked on some almonds. Maybe later I will has some jello. Come on your know you are jealous =)

My next goal was to weigh 210 at my cousins wedding. I doubt that will happen, but I am still shooting for it. I did pick up my gym visits this week. I am still benched from running which is killing me. No running till August. But I have been killing it on the elliptical. I have managed to keep an 11 min mile pace on the elliptical at a 9 resistance which is killer. I am on day 3 of the no carb so hopefully it will start to get easier. I am trying to stay on induction phase, but i am sure I have something here or there I am not supposed to, but I am really really trying. I'd like to stay induction till I return back from visiting my family in 3 weeks. It will be the easiest way to make sure I don't gain any weight.

77 lbs left to go till my dream goal weight of 145

62 lbs left to go till my ok goal of 160

47 lbs left to go till my ok but still pushing goal of 175.


I'm going to try to starting posting some pictures. And then pictures at ever 10, and then when I hit goals...that might be a lot of pictures lol

Pictures Don't Lie

I don't think of myself as a fat person. I am not sure how I manage to do that seeing as I wear a size 16 and XL. But in my head I am still that size 8 athletic build person I was 6 year ago when I married my husband.
Well, fast forward 6 years, add 2 babies, 2 deployment, 2 major moves and just life in general and I am no longer the 155 lb person I use to be. Last night I uploaded pictures to my facebook page from our family vacation...I just wanted to cry.
I watch biggest looser and I see bog people, and I just never feel like I am as big as those people. I am! I have got to stop lying to myself! Stop telling myself, "oh you lost 2 lbs you can have a brownie". No NO I cant! Not only is my sister now getting married, but my sister in law is now getting married in March!!! SO no waiting till June of next year to look good. Got to get it done by 30 for real now!
Ok, tomorrow is a new day. I am doing the induction phase of Adkins. I will weight in for my daughters birthday and in 14 days for the end of induction phase. I have lots of stuff going on this week so I will probably not write till Saturday...again not that anyone is reading this....but just in case!

Let's talk Goals!

So every person should set goals for a diet...I probably should have done this from the get go.  But oh well lets do it now =)
Current weight 227! (wow only like 70lbs overweight) Weight chart states for a Large Boned (yes I am one of those ;)) I should be 147-163 lbs. 6 years ago when I married my husband I was around 165 wore a size 10 and was pretty happy with that. 2 years prior to that I was engaged to an a$$whole and weighed around 140lbs and would LOVE To see myself there again. But these days, I'd just like to not feel like a heifer. I mean I am in my last year of my 20's! I have 2 small kids, I should be wearing trendy clothing and cute jewelry and hanging out with other Junior Leaguers. Not being a recluse because I refuse to buy bigger clothes and I literally have nothing to wear.
Ok so Goals:
July 2nd: Daughters B'day party 222  (8 days)
August 6th:Cousins Wedding 210   (43 days total down 17 additional 12 in 35 days)
September 4th: Half Marathon 199   (72 days total down 28 lbs additional 11 in 29 days)
October 31st: Halloween!!!  184    (99 days total down 43lbs additional 15 in 27 days)hummmm
November 24th:Thanksgiving with my Family 175  (123 days total down 52 additional 9 in 24 days)
December 25th: Happy Christmas to me (I hope) 170 (148 days total down 56 additional 5 in 31 days)
March 17th: My 30th 160 (231 days total down 67 additional 10 in 83 days)
June 16th: Baby sister gets married 147 (322 days total down 80 lbs additional 13 in 91 days )
Don't ask how or why I picked the dates I did...I just did. I think some will be much more difficult then others. but hey hears hoping. When you read them they all seem doable. I mean there seems to be enough time between them all. October is a stretch...but we shall see if I am 100% on I will still be happy. Biggest goal right now is to be under 2 at the half marathon.
Ok, better luck with the rest of the week I hope. I have a busy weekend so I will report back (to myself because no one reads this blog as of yet) on Monday =)
Night ya'll

Big Fat Fail!!!

Ok, so the last few days have been a HUGE fail! I have been down 2 up 2 down 2 up 2. Then found out today that I am officially benched from the treadmill for the next 6 weeks! I am running a half marathon in 10 weeks!!! I can't not run for 6 weeks! Well, the new plan is just to finish the half, looks like I will be walking. I have been doing good staying low carb till the evening and my husband gets home. I also bought some nutter butters at the grocery store earlier this week (why I don't know I knew I would want to eat them!) well I did and they are now officially gone =) so tomorrow is a fresh day. I have 8 days till my daughters 1st birthday. I told myself I would be under 200 lbs when she turned 1, but unless I cut my leg off, that is not gonna happen. So I will take being down 5 lbs in the next week. Which I know is a HUGE task but if I stick to the low carb I have 8 days it should happen.

My goal is to be 222 by July 2nd...

Thin by 30...or bust

As of today I have..well i am not sure how many days I have left till I am 30. I do have somewhat of a life although I am blogging at 11:20 on a Sunday night while I nurse my last glass of Pinot Grigio before bed.
1st on the check list for losing weight, time to ax the wine.
I have given myself one year (granted I am a few months behind schedule) to get thin before I turn 30. For as long as I can remember I have had to watch what I eat, I can't remember the last time I felt really happy with my body. I spent my 20's yo yoing through multiple diets, and being larger and thinner. I am not going to do it anymore. It is time to get ahold of things. I have had my babies, there are no more excuses. I want to be a hip mom! I want to wear a BIKINI (gasp) again! I want to feel good naked in front of my husband, break out some of that lingerie I got 6 years ago when we married. Most of all I want to look outside the way I feel I should look inside. Since it is late I will start things off short today...just the basics.I'm 29. Weighed in today at 227. That is 10 lbs more then my husband who is 6'5"! I am not that tall. I will be 30 in March, and my baby sister gets married June 16th next year and her biggest bridesmaid besides myself, might wear a 6. I'm sporting a 16 these dayes with hopes to be at least 160 this time next year with a dream weight of 145.  My plan? Well, if I can come up with the money physicians weight loss is where I am plan to go.  I have used the B12 shots before and they are a GOD SEND! But I am feeling that it won't be in our budget till after Christmas. SO I am hitting it low carb style starting tomorrow morning. I've been working out fairly consistently for a while now and am running a half marathon in September so hopefully that will help to boost my weight loss. I'm going to try to post short blogs of my day. Food details, weight loss, workout, you know the basics. Wish me luck!