Weigh in Wednesday..

I really wish that there was an exclamation point after that title but there isn't.  Having my one cheat meal, which turned into 2 full cheat days with some major bad over eating on Thursday and Friday leaves me just mad, sad, and irritated. I weighed in this evening at my illusive 222. +2 pounds from my blog a week ago and +3 from where I weighed in after I had blogged. The past few days I have been sitting at 223 with not a budge and really thought I would be posting that as my weight today. But i weighed in before I showered after dinner tonight and was a little happy to see it was down another lb again. But i will be even happier when I get back to the 219. I read over my goals again and was just so bummed to see how little progress I am making. I keep think that something has to give soon right? Other then my cheat days I have been sticking to my low carb meal plan, and hitting the gym on a regular basis. Maybe I should start my posts with my workout for the day..hum that is a thought.
Anyway, back to what I was saying. My goals. I am so off for what I wanted to be. My August 6th I was hoping to be at 210. Weighing in today at 12 lbs over that =(. I am hoping the weight loss really starts to get moving soon. With the half marathon looming in September I am picking up the workout sessions. Not to mention my oldest child will be back in school soon and that too will help pick up my gym visits.

I hope to be turning frowns upside down next week!

~Till Later

Deep breath...don't look back

Ok so I teetered a bit...notice there hasn't been a blog since my weigh in last week? Well there is a reason. I am trying to overcome my fall. I allowed a friend of mine to take me into a "cheat" meal. One meal a week in which you have what you want. Well that may be all fine and good when I am down 40lbs, but when you have lost a whopping 7lbs it is not the time be adding in a "cheat" meal. And I knew this. But I gave in and did...OH so bad. When we left our friends house I got a bottle of wine and the cheat continued. I only had a glass Thursday night, but I drank the rest of it on Friday night, along with finishing off a bag of chips, a chocolates candy bar, and a pack of pop tarts. Pretty sure none of those things are "low carb". Needless to say the scale skyrocketed. Finally this morning I weighed back in at 221. Not quite the 219 I weighed in at after I wrote my blog on Wednesday. So it is still upsetting. By this evening after dinner I weighed in at 224! UGHGGHGHG not this again! I counted the weeks that I have had this blog and if I get back to 220 before Wednesday I have lost a lb a week. That is just not going to cut it for me! I need to be losing more, I weigh enough to be losing more. Not to mention if I keep it up I will not have lost enough by the 1st wedding I am in in March.

So, today is Monday, I am taking a deep breath and not looking back. I am having a class of wine tonight to celebrate the fact that I got an A in my class (I am back in school after 8 years I will write about that tomorrow). It is back to the hard core stay the course. I am hoping I can get back to the 220 by Wednesday when I weight in. Better yet if I could get to the 219 in which I was when I weighed in even better. I was really hoping I could make some progress on my own and not go and get on the diet plan at the Dr office, but it is looking more and more like I will be bitting the bullet in a few weeks and going to do that. When you have 70+ lbs to loose, you have to make it happen. I don't want to get discouraged, but I need to see some real progress and fast!

Some people and programs may be happy with alb a week. I just am not one of them. I know what I am capable of losing because I have done it before. The good news is I know if loss 30 lbs it will drastically change the way I am able to work out and the way I look because I did it just a few years ago before I had my daughter. Now if I can just get back there and hopefully soon!


Till later!

Lets Make A Weigh In Day!

Let's make a weigh in day! And I decided today will be the day. Granted I actually weigh in everyday, multiple times a day. Unhealthy maybe.  But it is what I need to do. I have to know where I am standing. Frustrating yes. Seeing as I weigh in and see one number and later that same day see another. It is annoying and some times very frustrating. Like why did I gain 4 lbs just because I ate a salad for dinner? However, I have found when I don't do so. And I don't weigh in a lot what happens is it is weeks later and I get on the scale and have gained 16 lbs. Oh and i can do that in a matter of days. When we moved two years ago. I went 9 days without a scale. In that nine days I gained 19 lbs. Impressive I know. I have to stay on it at all times. Obsessively on it.

I am going to make "official" weigh ins for progress post on Wednesdays. I have this blog for a month and haven't really made an attempt to get some things organized so here is the beginning of getting this thing to look like a real blog. Today I weighed in at 220! Skipped right on over that illusive 222! I didn't get to weigh in this morning because my husband was in the shower when the kids and I left so I weighed in when I got home from the water park this afternoon. I am sure I am dehydrated and before I go to bed tonight I will have gained a few pounds in liquid, but that seems to be the trend. I did the same thing with the 222lbs.  Hopefully the 220 will be more contestant. Hopefully all this dieting and gym work is finally starting to get me somewhere. I guess only time will tell. Oh I hope to bust through the 220's before this week is over. It would be so great to be in the 2 teens. Granted It will be even better when I start with a 1, and better yet when I have hit my super awesome probably over a year away dream goal of 145 =)

S0 weigh in today at 220. That is a weight loss of 7 lbs since this blog started and down 14 from 234 when I started the weight loss journey on my birthday. Fingers crossed I can break through the 200's by the time I run the half marathon on September 4th. I am not going to hold my breath though seeing as I have 6 weeks to so it in. Even 2 lbs a week wouldn't get me there. but here is to hoping. At least seeing the number 220 come up on the scale 3 times today (yes I weigh 3 times in a row to make sure that I am standing on the scale correctly, or whatever to make sure I get the same number 3 times straight) gave me a new push that finally I may be getting somewhere. I know if I can see a loss ever few days I can stay focused it is when you hit those walls you ask yourself, if I am not losing weight anyway I might as well eat some of that cake!

Till later!

The Illusive 222

Never in my life did I think I would be hoping that 222 would come up on the scale. I mean NEVER! I spent my whole childhood. Thin, I mean really thin. I didn't start to really gain weight till I was in high school and even then I graduated wearing a size 6/8 and having a very nice athletic build. Of course I thought I was fat. But in reality I was fit! I left for college and of course gained the freshman 15. But for me it was more of the freshman 50. But Christmas of my freshman year I weighed in at 190 lbs.  That is a long cry from the 145 I left home weighing. My boyfriend at the time was still in high school so I went to a Christmas formal with him over break. Those pictures are what pushed me over the edge. When I returned to school I started Atkins and was back working out. I was too embarrassed to work at the college rec center so I would walk/jog from my dorm to the rec center, weigh in, and walk/run back. It was about a 4 mile trip and worked. When I came home in March my sister was in cotillion and I had told my boyfriend I was going to where the same dress I wore to Christmas formal. When he arrived to take me he said there was no way in hell that was the same dress. But it was, I just looked way better in it. I had lost 60lbs and was looking pretty good. I kept that weight off for the rest of the freshman year and into my sophomore year when that same boyfriend and i broke up I dropped another 20 almost overnight. He had broken things off 2 weeks prior to his fraternity formal which I had already bought a dress and made him take me anyway! LOL! I had a blast whether we were dating or not, and weighing in at 140 lbs I looks amazing in it. About a year later I started dating one of the worst people on the planet. I even managed to drop another 10 lbs and stayed at about 130 for all of my junior and most of my senior years. When I got out I creeped up a little but still stayed around 150-160 an was healthy.  But between working 2 jobs and having a life as a young 20 something working out did not happen
Needless to say 222 was never some where I thought I would be one day. These past few weeks I have seen it flash up, but it would never last, I would weigh in an hour later that same day and be 226 or 224. It just keeps flashing up over and over again! I just want it to stay then I want to BREAK THROUGH IT!

I have conquered so many things in my life that losing the weight should be easy...notice the should!

Pushing over the hump...

It feels to early in the game to e pushing through the hump, but that is where I find myself. The other day when I weighed in at 222, I weighed again in the same day and was back up to 226. I decided that it was water. I was downing an insane amount of water that day, well and every day since. It has been heat index of 115 here. Well, I am back down to 224 but haven't seen 22 since I weighed in and posted. I have been sticking to my no carbs though. It is killing me. Of course I am eating carbs, but it I am not cheating at all when it comes to bread, pasta, sweets...that stuff. Maybe I should post about my low carb philosophy? OK that will be the next post. Anyway, I told my husband tonight I was getting frustrated again. He told me to stick to it, I've been staying focused these last few weeks. He even went to the store to get me some more pork rinds so I could have a snack with him while we watched a movie tonight. I then finished my night with some sugar free jello, which kind of tasted like cough medicine.

Tomorrow will be a better day, tomorrow will be a better day, tomorrow will be a better day

It's going down!

So I didn't meet my goal for my daughter’s birthday party last Saturday. It took me an extra week. I weighed in this evening at 222. I will take it. That's down from 234when I started tracking it, and down from 227 when I started this blog. I will take 5. Heck I will take whatever I can get.

I am low carbing. It stinks. I feel like I am starving and all I want is a HUGE bowl of bowtie pasta with pesto sauce and garlic bread. Needless to say, this is why I weight 222 lbs. In the past when I have done well on a diet I allow myself to have a normal portion of something bad for you. I don't know why I would think since i have lost 5 lbs I can start to eat normal again. So tonight, after I weighed myself, I sat down and ate my fajitas w/o a wrap and snacked on some almonds. Maybe later I will has some jello. Come on your know you are jealous =)

My next goal was to weigh 210 at my cousins wedding. I doubt that will happen, but I am still shooting for it. I did pick up my gym visits this week. I am still benched from running which is killing me. No running till August. But I have been killing it on the elliptical. I have managed to keep an 11 min mile pace on the elliptical at a 9 resistance which is killer. I am on day 3 of the no carb so hopefully it will start to get easier. I am trying to stay on induction phase, but i am sure I have something here or there I am not supposed to, but I am really really trying. I'd like to stay induction till I return back from visiting my family in 3 weeks. It will be the easiest way to make sure I don't gain any weight.

77 lbs left to go till my dream goal weight of 145

62 lbs left to go till my ok goal of 160

47 lbs left to go till my ok but still pushing goal of 175.


I'm going to try to starting posting some pictures. And then pictures at ever 10, and then when I hit goals...that might be a lot of pictures lol