Pictures Don't Lie

I don't think of myself as a fat person. I am not sure how I manage to do that seeing as I wear a size 16 and XL. But in my head I am still that size 8 athletic build person I was 6 year ago when I married my husband.
Well, fast forward 6 years, add 2 babies, 2 deployment, 2 major moves and just life in general and I am no longer the 155 lb person I use to be. Last night I uploaded pictures to my facebook page from our family vacation...I just wanted to cry.
I watch biggest looser and I see bog people, and I just never feel like I am as big as those people. I am! I have got to stop lying to myself! Stop telling myself, "oh you lost 2 lbs you can have a brownie". No NO I cant! Not only is my sister now getting married, but my sister in law is now getting married in March!!! SO no waiting till June of next year to look good. Got to get it done by 30 for real now!
Ok, tomorrow is a new day. I am doing the induction phase of Adkins. I will weight in for my daughters birthday and in 14 days for the end of induction phase. I have lots of stuff going on this week so I will probably not write till Saturday...again not that anyone is reading this....but just in case!

Let's talk Goals!

So every person should set goals for a diet...I probably should have done this from the get go.  But oh well lets do it now =)
Current weight 227! (wow only like 70lbs overweight) Weight chart states for a Large Boned (yes I am one of those ;)) I should be 147-163 lbs. 6 years ago when I married my husband I was around 165 wore a size 10 and was pretty happy with that. 2 years prior to that I was engaged to an a$$whole and weighed around 140lbs and would LOVE To see myself there again. But these days, I'd just like to not feel like a heifer. I mean I am in my last year of my 20's! I have 2 small kids, I should be wearing trendy clothing and cute jewelry and hanging out with other Junior Leaguers. Not being a recluse because I refuse to buy bigger clothes and I literally have nothing to wear.
Ok so Goals:
July 2nd: Daughters B'day party 222  (8 days)
August 6th:Cousins Wedding 210   (43 days total down 17 additional 12 in 35 days)
September 4th: Half Marathon 199   (72 days total down 28 lbs additional 11 in 29 days)
October 31st: Halloween!!!  184    (99 days total down 43lbs additional 15 in 27 days)hummmm
November 24th:Thanksgiving with my Family 175  (123 days total down 52 additional 9 in 24 days)
December 25th: Happy Christmas to me (I hope) 170 (148 days total down 56 additional 5 in 31 days)
March 17th: My 30th 160 (231 days total down 67 additional 10 in 83 days)
June 16th: Baby sister gets married 147 (322 days total down 80 lbs additional 13 in 91 days )
Don't ask how or why I picked the dates I did...I just did. I think some will be much more difficult then others. but hey hears hoping. When you read them they all seem doable. I mean there seems to be enough time between them all. October is a stretch...but we shall see if I am 100% on I will still be happy. Biggest goal right now is to be under 2 at the half marathon.
Ok, better luck with the rest of the week I hope. I have a busy weekend so I will report back (to myself because no one reads this blog as of yet) on Monday =)
Night ya'll

Big Fat Fail!!!

Ok, so the last few days have been a HUGE fail! I have been down 2 up 2 down 2 up 2. Then found out today that I am officially benched from the treadmill for the next 6 weeks! I am running a half marathon in 10 weeks!!! I can't not run for 6 weeks! Well, the new plan is just to finish the half, looks like I will be walking. I have been doing good staying low carb till the evening and my husband gets home. I also bought some nutter butters at the grocery store earlier this week (why I don't know I knew I would want to eat them!) well I did and they are now officially gone =) so tomorrow is a fresh day. I have 8 days till my daughters 1st birthday. I told myself I would be under 200 lbs when she turned 1, but unless I cut my leg off, that is not gonna happen. So I will take being down 5 lbs in the next week. Which I know is a HUGE task but if I stick to the low carb I have 8 days it should happen.

My goal is to be 222 by July 2nd...

Thin by 30...or bust

As of today I have..well i am not sure how many days I have left till I am 30. I do have somewhat of a life although I am blogging at 11:20 on a Sunday night while I nurse my last glass of Pinot Grigio before bed.
1st on the check list for losing weight, time to ax the wine.
I have given myself one year (granted I am a few months behind schedule) to get thin before I turn 30. For as long as I can remember I have had to watch what I eat, I can't remember the last time I felt really happy with my body. I spent my 20's yo yoing through multiple diets, and being larger and thinner. I am not going to do it anymore. It is time to get ahold of things. I have had my babies, there are no more excuses. I want to be a hip mom! I want to wear a BIKINI (gasp) again! I want to feel good naked in front of my husband, break out some of that lingerie I got 6 years ago when we married. Most of all I want to look outside the way I feel I should look inside. Since it is late I will start things off short today...just the basics.I'm 29. Weighed in today at 227. That is 10 lbs more then my husband who is 6'5"! I am not that tall. I will be 30 in March, and my baby sister gets married June 16th next year and her biggest bridesmaid besides myself, might wear a 6. I'm sporting a 16 these dayes with hopes to be at least 160 this time next year with a dream weight of 145.  My plan? Well, if I can come up with the money physicians weight loss is where I am plan to go.  I have used the B12 shots before and they are a GOD SEND! But I am feeling that it won't be in our budget till after Christmas. SO I am hitting it low carb style starting tomorrow morning. I've been working out fairly consistently for a while now and am running a half marathon in September so hopefully that will help to boost my weight loss. I'm going to try to post short blogs of my day. Food details, weight loss, workout, you know the basics. Wish me luck!